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Fulfilling.

What you’re about to read is something I wrote in a moment and time in my life where I was truly heartbroken; filled with heavy emotions and overwhelming thoughts. In a moment where the pain seemed to be all too much for me. And even though I KNEW God would get me through it and even though I KNEW God would use it for my own good, it just didn’t take away from the fact that right then and there, in that specific time of my life I was hurting. And I wanted it so desperately to come to an end; to sing for joy once again. I will say this though, in that moment I was so incredibly thankful to have God in my life. I knew then that the pain I was feeling, the situation I was faced with was one I could face with confidence and a restful heart. For I had God on my side, right there next to me, holding my hand and wiping away the tears. Behind me, pushing me through. Right in front of me leading me to where He knew I needed to be. I could trust that even though I may not know the reason be...
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Open.

Today I was thinking about how much pain I am feeling as I hear my niece laughing in the other room, without a care in the world, not worried about when or what she will eat next, what her day is going to look like, what others may think of her, what she has to get done, whether or not she will have enough for the bills. And I almost envy her. Envy kids in general really. I start to think about all we face as grown-ups and the way we view the world and our everyday life vs how a child may perceive it and the little they have to face in comparison. Now don't get me wrong, I really am not trying to generalize here, I realize that there are exceptions and children who face far more than they ever should at their age. It's heartbreaking really. But still this really got me thinking and I couldn't help but to find myself wishing I was a little girl again. Without a worry. And it's just then I realize something I strongly felt God trying to reveal to me; that is how we should...
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Rest.

There’s so much beauty in knowing that regardless of how bad things are at the moment, regardless of the place I find myself in and the hurt I’m faced with, regardless of all of the above and so much more everything will be okay someday. It may not feel like it rn but my heart and soul know it is true, for my God is a good God who will use this pain for the better of things. My God is a God who is with me right here, right now. Not on the other side of the mountain waiting for me to get through. But right here next to me, holding my hand calling my name, showing me the way. He is the one who gives me the strength to keep moving forward, to get back up again, to set my eyes on what’s ahead. He is the one who understands exactly what it is I’m going through and wants to show me the beauty behind the pain. All my life I grew up wishing someone would simply understand. All of it. My whole life, why I am the way I am, everything I’ve been through, the way I feel, the way I view things, eve...
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